So... Here I am after what seems to be a while and quite frankly it has been... The past couple of weeks have been, unexplainable.. That is all I have been able to just say about it.. The first reason was because all of the questions I have been left with questions since "that day"(that is all I am saying about it) that I have not been able to answer any of them.. I have turned to god to help me figure them out but patients is what I have to master at this time.. I just wish that this feeling would just go away and leave me alone but that is also wishful thinking.. Everything just seemed to backfire on me.. I hate it when that happens.. but as they say everything happens for a reason.. I want to know those reasons when I was perfectly happy, now I am just sitting here thinking again. That is not healthy for me cause it brings me down when I can't figure anything out.. I guess these things will come eventually...